a Fight worth fighting for- hd gate/gene key 38
not everything deserves a fight
not everything will have the fuel in you to fight for
Not everything will get you to even care for a fight
but then there will be things you will care too much to not fight for.
There will be things you have the goddamn fuel to fight for so much that if you don’t channel it into your fight, it’ll drive you crazy.
There will be things you deeply know you are here to fight for, a higher purpose, a calling – and for that, you must fight, you must persevere, and eventually honor the spirit of a warrior in you as it takes you to be honored in return.
What the world perceives as struggle, you free them with the fight showing them there’s a better way. We don’t have to struggle.
hd GATE 38/gene key 38
Archetype Name: The Purposeful Fighter In Action, fight for things that have meaning and Purpose
Official Gate Name: Fighter
Human Design Definition: The ability to preserve individual integrity through opposition to detrimental forces.
Core Theme: Pressure to find or struggle for purpose in life. In this context, pressure is not necessarily a problem. It’s really about acting under the amount of pressure that is correct for you.
Bodygraph Center: Root center and connects to the Splenic center via human design gate 28. (Harmonic Gate, Gate of Daredevil)
Programming Partner: Gate 39
Tropical Sign: Capricorn
Internal Motivator:”The Hero’s Journey is my life path
GENE KEY 38.5
HONOUR – SIDDHI
PERSEVERANCE – GIFT
STRUGGLE – SHADOW
This gate is my Unconscious Venus in Human Design. In Gene Keys, it’s my Spiritual Quotient, the heart of my relationships. I have always held the shadow around being a fighter. Up until 15, I lived a life without a voice, without a fight. A yes girl even when it was a no. Then i don’t know, something happened and around that time, I started to put out a fight for things I deeply felt for, cared for. I couldn’t stand certain things. I started hearing my own voice. I started to fight, rebel, and take a stand. And many times that got me into trouble & chaos. It got me into bad books. It got certain people in my environment to not like me. It ruffled a few feathers. It was a disruption to the norm. No one likes that. No one likes to be opposed or questioned. We haven’t yet cultivated the resilience to disagreement and in particular a good fight – even though we applaud them in fictions, history & screens and even daydream about the hero’s journey often. But when it comes to real life, our need to be liked, accepted & belonging surpasses the higher purpose, truth & cause. If I think of it now, this journey became such a big shadow for me in my Relationships, especially for the archetype of the Femininity we hold. Peaceful, gentle, soft, harmonious. A fighter? No please. (I understand why it’s my SQ in the Venus Sequence after all) . Now i wouldn’t deny that on the way I might have picked up fights which were not even mine sometimes which is when it led me to painful struggles without a purpose – until I actually found fights worth fighting for. Over the years there are many things I have been fighting for, but especially a few battles that my heart could NOT give up on. I mean i wouldn’t be here writing & sharing this here doing what i do if i couldn’t put up the fight for this work. I am freeing myself as I free you to step outside the struggles of life as I take up this fight to find a new way out of that what is not working. This is my purpose, my fight. My struggle has fueled this fight. I had the option to be a victim or to rise and find a way and eventually lead you on this way too. My shadow around Struggle sometimes makes my fights feel like a struggle to the outside world – which ofcourse keeps feeding the victim inside brilliantly. But when i deeply reflect, like these last few days of Sun transiting Gate 38, i don’t think it’s been a struggle as much as its been my PERSEVERANCE. Perseverance requires the root energy, which if you have this gate or the root centre defined like me, you would have access to consistently and you can’t help but actually persevere. And when I anchor deeply into that PERSERVERENCE, allowing myself to continue, I can actually HONOUR the spirit of Warrior in me!
This feels so potent with the Rajput ancestry and all the past lives I have seen as a warrior/warrioress. They’d be so proud, right?
Yes, I am soft, I am peaceful, I am harmonious and gentle and compassionate, but god knows, I am all that only because I have been a braveheart fighter and warrior. I love deeply, I feel deeply and I have it in me to fight deeply for what I care about. And if it wasn’t for this fight for the truth of it all, I wouldn’t be that feminine who’s soft, open, and compassionate. It’s impossible to be her, the soft loving feminine, without being him, the passionate, devoted, inner warrior.
If we look back on history, the human race wouldn’t have been the one standing surviving if we didn’t have warriors, fighters & rebels for a cause. We wouldn’t have seen the changes and evolution that we have seen if there were no free thinkers & creatives who dared to think the other way and challenge the status quo. And we won’t really go deeper into the places we are meant to if we don’t find it in us to care about something, something, to fight for. It really takes a brave heart to deeply believe in their vision and then fight for it – fight and persevere – fight and truly honor the spirit of the warrior within them & not feel apologetic or shame for playing this role. We all have different fights to fight for.
As I wrote above, there’d be things we wouldn’t bother to fight for, there would be things we wouldn’t feel the passion to fight for and there would be things we just won’t have the energy to fight for – but if there are things for which we find ourselves finding all the three – then it’s a fight worth fighting for. And it’s time we stop feeling shame around it and instead honor that warrior in us. If you haven’t found a fight worth fighting for, aka a purpose, keep finding until you can’t help but devote yourself to it. But if you have, then know that your fight is and will be honored sooner or later. Every warrior attains that divinity at some point.
What is a fight worth fighting for in your life?
What are the fights you are fighting for but they are not even yours?
How can you honor the warrior & the fighter in you?
Where do you shame yourself for your warrior spirit?
What scares you about being a fighter so much that you’d rather never fight? Eg- I will lose, I will never win, I will not be liked?
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